Life of the fisherman.

Guess wat... after so long away from blogging, i am starting it again.. sounded so childish...

Missing in life and lost in work, same as usual, 24hrs of each day was like being spent 14 to 15hrs there... life is like only working and working... hiding and hiding... working to hid myself from others... many lost tots and dreams.

Hahaha... today was a great day... a day filled with many surprises... first... my brother came back from taiwan... :)

2nd... he got me my wish list 3 items... first the CA-53, bluetooth handsfree and a new pole rod.

haha... great great day for me... cannot wait to test out the pole rod... haha...

i WANNA a :

1) bluetooth nokia handset.
2) CA -53 nokia PC connector cable.
3) $20000 to clear my study and bad debts.
4) new baitcasting set. (Shimano scropion with 15pound fireline, and GL3)
5) new spinning set.
6) 10 days fishing trip all paid for.....
7) a brand new Mazda MX-5
8) a new bigger storage nokia memory card. maybe 1Gb...

oh shit... i think 3, 6 and 7 are really impossible...

All I wished now is to have a better working hours with better pay... haha...
and more time with my family and GF...

actually, after working for more than 2 months, i realised many things that i din see in my life before.. as a worker... is totally different from a students... or NS man.

time seen never been enough for my social life. more responsibilities are needed all the time in work. Work is true important. however, social life is also dear.
I din even realise this until last friday when i met up hanwei, guppy, yao kun, Xing. the time spent there brighten up my days. flashback of my sec life is there again. the few hours i spent that nite... bought the most enjoyable smile and laughter to me since ... dunno when...

Thanx guys. I really enjoyed that nite... Yao kun faster finish your Gif and send to me... I would like to share those moments with my other friends too...

Yes.... god gave me the ans... she is coming liao... I just felt so delighted and happy... i think this kind of feelings is really un-explainable... just that it is true for everyone like me...

see after you had do so much... not just in love... but oso your job and projects. you will still ike something to happen to you happily... like wat is expected. but we all will get upset when you dun really get anything near.

yesterday, seriously.... after she told me that she might not be coming... my world is ike going to crash to hell.. cos i had already planned to surprise her... with the cooking i am going to do. i really like her to taste my dishes... and give me any feedbacks. even if the taste might not be good. or a bad feedback... but i dun mind...

all i care is the every moments we are together. to really cheerish a girl of love. is more important. to see her laugh... her smile... her anger... her everything. as long as she is with and beside me... anything oso can...

will post wat is the overcome soon... tomoro.

after today's shopping for something to cook on sunday... ended up my guest might not be turning up... I felt so sad... imagine you have been hoping for some fruits to drop... and when the moment comes...

a fruit bat come and bite off the fruits... how do you feel?? if really cannot commit... pls it is better not to promise a commitment... you really will hurt someone who plan for so much....

i even come out with a menu for her... a soup for start... spa-get with cheesy and bacon toppings... as the main course... then chocolate fom-due for dessert...

i dun even hope much now... wat can i ask for more.... ?? if god can tell me an ans....

I really hope the answer is yes...she will be coming... hoping hoping.... hahaha....

dear all,

it has been a long time last since i wrote in here.... hope you all are still reading... after so much of my FYP and studies.... i think i am now going to write how i felt on life and stuff in this site...

nothing had changed. only tat sometimes...i felt that my life sux... noone is there to share some of my deepest tots. only i myself noe... i really appreciate if someone out there really knows how i felt... but to my horror... sometimes... i thinks no one noes... even the closes one.

why?? i think life is like that... is a test for everyone. you have to fight to get what you want... but is the rewards really something you like to see?? are you being appreciated?? sometimes does... and most of the times... no.

I just heard a couple quarrelling... two of my closest friends... topic... appreciation of love...
She called me and told me they broke off... i din manage to catch any words from her mouth... only sniffing of nose and sobbing.... till the moment i called my friend and asked him wat happened...

guess wat... he said to me that after he had gave up so much for her... yet... he felt he had nothing in return... and felt he was taken for granted... I was silence after that... I explained to him stuff. and heard his stuff... which we promised not to tell anyone.

after that call i hope he will understand... and wat is going to happen next is up to them.

but for everyone out there... not for just girls... i think guys oso need some pampering... imagine... to maintain a healthy love ... both side must give and take. but if the love is going always one way. girls you will bored the guy... trust me. sometimes. all it needs is a simple deep hug onto him. and speak the magic words.. "I LOVE YOU!" this is going to warm him... and make him melt. and i can tell you he will be more loving than ever.

all we guys dun need much... but some true love for the moment... and some magic words into his ears. i mean wat so difficult. after all you are already his GF... and why is it so mushy to say this to him?? nothing to pai seh.

being able to appreciate your love is the most important. dun wait till the last moment and then regret... anyone can do anything at any moment.

appreciate him or her right now... call him or her... tell them you love him.

or maybe some girls out there can tell me more by replying in the comments... on how you will be happier if your love noes how to denote you.... guys you too can write something...

This should be a very common stuff in everyone mind now and then.

I must say not all can perform in the same way... for me, i think i need a consistant working environment. I dun like last minute stuff... cos everytime,.... when you do last minute stuff... you tense to cock up here and there... slowly and do it from the very beginning.

being consist in everything you do is also a very good thing. cos you will never know wat you going to face until the moment during your job. to everyone... I can say... over confidence kills.

why do i say so.. cos when you are being given a project. never over estimate your timing and simplicity of the job. like when you say... aiya... is simple lah... i can finish in one hour... but wat do you know... the one hour thing in your mind... will turn out to be a whole nite event. cos until the moment you got a problem... you will be very tensed up... and nervous... your mind will nto work like you suppose to be.

always start up early... and you can see along the way... you can do a lot fo simple job in one go... say if you start early... you can multi-task in the job. think and do bit by bits... when you put them together... you can finish the job faster to get hold to another job.

you can never relax till the moment you finish the job... when you finish the job. buffer yourself with a few more period fo time... to re-furnish the job... make improvements...

use this extra time after you finish the job. to think of a solution to all the coming questions. you will understand wat i say when you try it. to impress is always better than to just do it.

managing time is always a difficult thing to do. always force yourself. and think of the most important things first... always "use the time to finish the important things. and not the important time to finish the things."

do it step by step... dun jump up and down... job by job... this wil make you able to think better...

If you cannot manage your time to suite your job... and not let the time to manage your job.... if you cannot do it, than that's it... you will never succeed in your job. last minute?? to 20 % or lesser people out there maybe... but not to all..

The world of motivation is not so easy as one, 2, three.... cos in motivation there are so many thoeries and sayings... how to really motivate others?? but think of it... to be really living in this world, you must first learn to motivate yourself.

take for example. if you dunno how to motivate yourself in the first place... you will find yourself unable to be lasting in any project you are being given. when a big project is being passed to you... you will start up very very fast... and being motivated by the project responsibilities... and as an leader... 99% of us will be very happy... cos if you are being tasked with something important. you felt your belongings... and will force yourself into the job without hesitations.

in any project out there, sure there are many unseen problems. like the team spirits along the way. you must know how to motivate them in the different timings. if they need a rest.. you must be there to give it to them. letting everyone have a chance to breath air for awhile. "rest is for a further mileage."

and at the moment a big mistakes come out... you must know how to push the team on... and not to push any blame onto any one. cos this will break the spirit of the team... "Never kick any asses in between a project!" bare with them. once you put a blame on any one. the project passing thru % drop to less than 75%.

if you dun even know how to motivate yourself, you will not even carry on moving with the project. cos you are already worn out. but before that... it is always good to throw everything out of your mind for sometime... say take an at least half a day break from the mistakes... and take a great nap... go to the movie if you wanted... throw everything out... after the half day break when you come back... change your concept. and you will feel you can think better to solve the problem.

motivating others... this will be a very big topic... cos different person... will have different concepts or perceptions. in this world, thre are more than a few types of person. but we normally... only consider two types in the working life... Theory X and Theory Y.

Theory X- you believe that... your workers are always lazy.. and have to always Fuck them to get the job done.
Theory Y- you believe that... your workers will take on the job responsibility to work on their own timing and get the job done... in other words you trust your worker.

after learning yourself... I suggest to mix these two theories... be an X-Y cos you cannot treat everyone the same. some maybe really lazy B.O.S. which are the free loafing pack who just work for the sake of job. some are really fighting for the survival for their life whenever you throw a job to them.

give relavent fucking if you think is a correct time. but i think this kind of fucking your workers... pls leave to the very last.. say 10% of the whole.

always encourage your worker on. pinpoint out wat is their really good points. and tell them they can do even better. as you believe in them.. this is common lah. once any one out there... knows that you believe in them... they will survive further in the fightings. they will feel your belongings.. and they know they can depend on you.

this is getting long... i will write the next chapter of motivation soon. but to be really able to motivate others is the key of the whole world. like how you treat your spouses... encouraging them on when they are down. sometimes... a word "Cheer up." can sound so great... trust me.